I still don’t really know how we got here.
I still don’t understand why that label
Didn’t make me turn away from him.
And the fact that he hadn’t been given much time left on this earth somehow didn’t frighten me.
It made me sad, certainly.
For him, for us.
And it has gotten me thinking.
Thinking about how I wish I were
braver the first time around.
Why is it when we were filling out that SN checklist for our first adoptions did the scary stuff
Where was my faith?
Where was my hope?
Where was my optimism?
But what I do know is that Joshua has forever changed me.
I think when we all begin this process of adoption
and we are drowning in paperwork
it is so incredibly easy to get caught up in the diagnosis of these kids that we lose sight of the child behind that diagnosis
especially one like Joshua’s
The diagnosis seems to define this vast sea of children waiting for a home.
This is what we are given.
And if we’re honest, it’s what we all tend to look for.
Give me the facts.
Just the facts ma’am.
But the striking thing is,
is that they are so much more than an age, or a gender or a diagnosis.
They are a child.
Joshua is not
Pulmonary Atresia & Tetralogy of Fallot, Terminal, as he paperwork stated.
and he’s funny
and he loves Star Wars
and his sense of sarcasm matches mine exactly
And if he has taught me anything it is this
Dying kids need families too.
Because you know what?
You never know.
And in 20 days this
can turn into this
and now this.
So if you are looking for another kiddo to add to your family
someone to love
someone to do life with
let me encourage you
There is a child out there with a terminal diagnosis that would just love to call you Mama
regardless of how many days, weeks, months or years they have on this earth.
Give them a chance
Give them hope
Give them l.o.v.e.
They need it.
They need YOU.
Sonia is a Jesus lovin’ Air Force wife and mother of 7 sons: 2 teens, 2 twins, and 3 boys adopted from China in 8 months. Her hobbies include cooking, eating, blogging and reading DIY manuals on how to install urinals in all of her bathrooms.