Find My Family: Johnny

March 16, 2019 0 Comments

Johnny was born in April of 2008 and is diagnosed as having a deformed skull, strabismus, and a mouth that slants to the right. It is very likely that he has hemifacial microsomia.

He was reported to have normal physical development and a ready smile. Sadly, Johnny’s file was prepared when he was an infant and he has sat and sat on the shared list. He was at the very bottom of the shared listthe very last file. Johnny had no updates, until now! We pushed for an update and have received great new photos and a written update.

It’s time Johnny is seen!

Written update from January 2019:

1. How is his mental ability compared to peers of the same age?
A little behind peers of his age.

2. How does the special need affect his health?
It doesn’t.

3. Is he potty trained?

4. Please describe his personality in details.
He is active and busy.

5. Is he well behaved and obedient?
He is well behaved and obedient.

6. How are his gross motor skills? Can he walk, run, jump, walk upstairs and downstairs by himself? Can he kick a ball? Can he pick up a ball? Any limited
Good. No limitations. His gross motor skills are just
like normal kids.

7. How are his fine motor skills? Can he draw or scribble on paper? Can he pick up little things with his fingers?
Good. He can draw and can pick up tiny things.

8. Is he in any kind of school? If so, what school? Can he catch up in school?
He is in special education school and can catch up in school.

9. How is his emotional development? Is the child attached to anyone? Who is he close to? Does he care for other people?
Good. He cares about others and is close to the main caretaker.

10. How are his social skills? Does he get along well with other children and adults?
Good. He can get along well with others.

11. Is he under foster care or living in the orphanage?
Always in the orphanage.

12. Updated Measurements:
Height: 132 CM
Weight: 21 KG
Head circ 53 CM

13. How is the language ability of the child? What can he say? Can he speak one
word, two words, or sentences? Can he express his needs well? Is his language
ability the same as peers of the same age?
His language ability is normal. He talks like an adult.

14. Can the child follow directions of adults? One step, two steps, or three steps?

15. Is the child on any medication?
He is not on medicine.

16. What is the daily schedule of the child?
He goes to school each day except Saturday and Sunday.

17. What does the child eat? Can he feed himself? Does the child eat with chopsticks, a spoon, or a bottle?
He eats with chopsticks.

18. Does the child know any English?

19. Does the child want to be adopted? Does the child understand what adoption means?

20. What color does the child like?

21. What activity does the child like to do?
Games and blocks.

22. What is the favorite toy of the child?

Johnny has a $1,000 agency grant for his adoption with Madison Adoption Associates. Other grants may be available based on the adoptive family’s circumstances. Agency grants are awarded as agency fee reductions. MAA also partners with the Brittany’s Hope Foundation for matching grants, which are given out twice a year (January and July) and to families that are officially matched with a child.

Johnny needs a family with an approved home study to be able to move forward with adopting him. If you have an approved home study or a home study in process and are interested in adopting Johnny, please fill out a free PAP Waiting Child Review Form, which can be found here.

What to Expect: A Letter to Traveling Families

March 14, 2019 1 Comments

Dear Soon to Travel Adoptive Family,

If I could go back now, these are the words that I’d whisper to my own pre-trip heart. My hope is that they’ll fall gently, offer a bucket of grace, excite your spirit, and speak to your heart.

Before our first adoption trip, I was giddy with joy and trembling weak-kneed. I spent so much time tasking that I missed the opportunity to pull back and consider heart preparation.

There is much to be done at this stage in your journey. You’ve got paperwork to finalize, shopping to do, travel to book, suitcases to pack, and lists to work through, but let me urge you to make space in your heart mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

I’d love to tell you exactly what to expect, but the mystery of it is just part of it. No promises can be made about your daughter’s gotcha-day reaction, how good your guides will be, if you’ll pack the right clothes, if your son will cry on the plane, or if you’ll like the hotel’s mattress. Your brain will want to focus there, but I encourage you to attempt a wider view.


Let go, in advance, of expectations and control. Give yourself a good talking to about releasing your hold. You’ve moved mountains to get here, so relinquishing control will require intention.

As your plane lifts into the air, un-grip your fists, and begin the surrender. Your dossier is complete, and it is your agency’s job now to put those last puzzle pieces together. Trust them to do their work. Trust the timing. Trust the Lord.

You will have guides who will keep you informed, organize your schedule, and help you plan tours. This will be an experience like none other. Take it as an opportunity to practice the discipline of surrender.

You will be thousands of miles away from all aspects of your normal life. Kids will not be in car seats, the food you eat will be different, and the schedule out of your control.

Whether by birth or adoption, every child has unique and developing emotional, mental and medical differences. All of us come with ever-evolving needs. No checklist, plan or preparation can prepare us for this. Sometimes surrendering our expectations is the hardest part of any relationship.


This trip will illicit in you all manner of feelings, some that make sense, and some that don’t seem to. Grant yourself permission to allow them to bubble up as they are. Give yourself grace and know they’ve been felt by many who have gone before you.

Remember that emotions are both healing and flaky, often coming unexpectedly and leaving quickly. It’s all part of the process.

Adoption is an extreme paradox of the beautiful and the broken. You will feel that.

For me, I had some unexpected feelings rise on our gotcha day. We’d pushed and pushed to get to the moment of meeting our daughter, but when the glorious finish line was in sight, I needed a nudge. What I can tell you now though, is that those faith-building days have positively impacted every day of my life that followed.

Lean In

If your experience is like ours, God will use this trip to speak volumes of truth to you. Be sensitive to that. Grab your travel partner’s hands and pray in the morning, in the evening, and every moment in between that feels beyond you. Pray in gratitude. Pray for help. Pray to hear the voice of the Holy Spirit leading you moment to moment.


This will be unusual and unique. Nothing that you are feeling in that space will last forever and don’t assume that your child’s behaviors represent their forever either. Keep perspective. Get through it, one day at a time.

If your emotions are weird. Keep perspective. They’ll pass.

If China feels overwhelming, scary or hard. Keep perspective. You are in China! What a gift. What an opportunity, but also a major life change. Push for the wider, long haul view.

See China

Experience it. Taste it. Sit and listen to it. Keep your eyes willing to see the beauty and your heart set on gratitude.

You’ll have the gift of agency planned tourism. Can I suggest that you enjoy those tours, but also go off the grid, by a street at least? Walk down the road behind the museum you are taken to. Peek into the shop next to the offices where you have meetings. Ask questions. Find a non-touristy park and sit, eat lunch, and bond with your new child.

In our times in country, we experienced Chinese people being very, very curious about our family. Some of the cultural norms that we have here don’t translate there, such as personal space, respecting privacy, asking questions, and giving opinions. Our guide in one province was obsessive about our daughter needing warm layers. In our eyes, she was fine. In hers, she was freezing. My momma bear instinct roared, and my husband had to encourage me to respond kindly. I’m glad he did. I was on her turf, and her view was not wrong because it was different.

Embrace the difference. We’ve seen families truly struggle with this, and I think its an opportunity loss. China is a fascinating, fun and mysterious place.

Relish the Perks

Consider the gift of where you are and what you get to do. Breakfast buffets, no food to cook, maid service, and travel guides. You will be given uninterrupted time to bond with your new child. Flip your thinking to see the positives.

Also, relish the moment. Drink in all the broken beautiful as best you can. This is a trip that will forever be one of the most memorable moments of your life. You are closest to the place of your child’s birth, and a trip that you’ll think of with a longing to return.

Your Child

Though you’ve yearned for your child, they were not expecting you. They are being taken from all that feels familiar.

Remind yourself that you are a stranger to them and being taken by you is traumatic. Withhold judgment. Withhold expectations. Withhold typical parenting norms.

When we adopted our Claire, she was used to having candy all the time. Having a treat in both hands had been a soothing technique of the nannies. When we adopted Evelyn, she was used to soothing herself with lovies and eating little sausages wrapped in red plastic. Feeding these to toddlers was not typical of us, but both girls were in the middle of a trauma, so we made sure to keep Claire’s hands full and a supply of meat sticks and clean lovies for Evelyn. While in China, we deferred to comfort and getting through the days.

All three of our children from China reacted differently in country, some in hard ways, some easier than expected. Looking back now, though there were glimpses of their real personalities, I can see the grieving in our photos. I see kids who were almost nothing like the children that they have become.

China Time

Your time in China will fly by and drag along. Some days you’ll have to push yourself to get from meeting to meeting and other days you’ll linger long in your hotel room simply figuring out this little person you’ve been given and letting them figure out you.

Meeting Your Child

Expect that your family day will look different than how you imagined. It might be sweet and special, or it might be hard. We’ve had both, but I can assure you that all three rank among the most special days of our lives.. Take it hour by hour and throw grace like confetti.

Ask permission first but take photos and video of anything that you can at the orphanage. Ask for the nannies’ names and write them down. I loved Rachel’s suggestion to film yourself recalling everything you could remember from that experience when you return to your hotel room. This life-altering experience will be a complete whirlwind. You’ll look back and struggle to remember exactly how it all happened.

The moments of meeting our children were profoundly beautiful and hard all at once.


Buy some treasures to bring home. Every little souvenir that you tuck into your suitcase will become a priceless keepsake when you land back home.

Don’t Waste It

You are going to want to. You are going to be tired, missing home, and missing your routine. You’ll be bone weary in all the ways that a person can be weary. The beauty is that it is a weariness that comes from the deepest kind of living.

The trip before you is a mystery, my soon to travel friends, but it’s a glimpse into a broken beautiful. A glimpse at your child’s homeland. It’s a peek into orphanage life and the culture of your child’s birth. It’s loaded with life’s best and hardest. Surrender. Keep perspective. Enjoy it and pray your guts out.
And go ahead and think through “What to expect on the long flight home”.

All the adoptive families who have gone before you will cheer you on, and follow your travels with pom poms and nostalgia.

Courage, dear hearts.

*Find more helpful information about adoption trips in NHBO’s China Trip and Gotcha Day categories.

Waiting Child Spotlight: Jerry

March 9, 2019 0 Comments

Jerry is a cute little boy, born in June of 2017… so he is just one year old! He is closest to his caretaker and likes to play with baby toys. Jerry has motor and language delays, but has been receiving rehabilitation training and early education as well.

When his file was prepared in August, he was not yet saying any words. Jerry was born with an inguinal hernia and also diagnosed as having cerebral palsy due to high muscular tension and delays. In October of 2017, he had surgery for the hernia.

Jerry can hold his head up, roll over, and sit independently. He knows his name and responds when called. He also makes good eye contact and understands simple instructions.

Jerry has a precious smile and he loves to laugh! A family and the right intervention will do this child wonders. It is our hope that Jerry finds his family and can get home while he is still so young!

Jerry has a $500 agency grant for his adoption with Madison Adoption Associates. Other grants may be available based on the adoptive family’s circumstances. Agency grants are awarded as agency fee reductions. MAA also partners with the Brittany’s Hope Foundation for matching grants, which are given out twice a year (January and July) and to families that are officially matched with a child.

Jerry needs a family with an approved home study to be able to move forward with adopting him. If you have an approved home study or a home study in process and are interested in adopting Jerry, please fill out a free PAP Waiting Child Review Form, which can be found here.

The Beginning of Forever: What to Expect in China

March 6, 2019 0 Comments

I had read all our agency’s material, devoured everything I could find on NHBO that may prepare us, had my parents retell their stories of China over the course of adopting five times. I even dug deep in the recesses of my memory to relive every detail of my time in Beijing, Xi’an, Guangzhou and …Read More

Waiting to be Chosen: Magnolia

March 2, 2019 0 Comments

Magnolia is a precious little girl, born in August of 2013, and described as extroverted and sweet tempered. And, oh my goodness, those cheeks! She is fairly active, talkative, and has quick reaction time. Magnolia enjoys singing and listening to music. She gets along well with others and likes playing outdoors with her friends and …Read More

What to Expect: the Homestudy

February 28, 2019 0 Comments

I have been a licensed social worker practicing in international adoptions for over six years now, and I must confess that I absolutely love paperwork! I recognize that I am probably in the minority. I tell families that the beginning of the adoption process might feel like you are trying to sip from a fire …Read More

Treasuring Small Firsts

February 26, 2019 2 Comments

Tonight I rocked my baby to sleep for the first time. Ever. Yes, he may be four and he may weigh 43 pounds, but I rocked him to sleep in my arms. To most moms this is usual occurrence. However, to an adoptive mom, this can be far from usual. In fact, it can be …Read More

Finding our Place in the Post-Adoption World

February 23, 2019 0 Comments

Honestly, I don’t feel like I quite fit in the special needs community. Or even the adoption community. Our lives at one point were very much impacted by both of those things, but now it looks very normal. I drive my four kids – all in school – and I drive them all over creation. …Read More

Find My Forever: Ember

February 20, 2019 0 Comments

Ember is an adorable little girl, born in January of 2010, who lives with a foster family. Ember is very close to her foster grandparents and to her teachers. She plays well with the siblings in her foster family and the other children in her class. Ember likes blocks, puzzles, and games. She loves to …Read More

Your Broken-Hearted Brave Hope

February 18, 2019 0 Comments

Dear Heart Warrior Mamas, Before we adopted our daughter, who was born with congenital heart disease (CHD), I didn’t know so many things. But you and my daughter have taught me.. I didn’t know what it meant to advocate for your own child. I have watched you learn medical terminology. I have witnessed your brave …Read More

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